Well here i am trying once again, fighting for an ounce of sanity. Its been a really hard few days to get through but realising that the HRT was having an influence on my mood has made it a little easier to bear - Its funny how having some sort of explanation for such a low mood can help to cope with it somehow, i suppose its the knowing that it will pass again quite soon.
The last few days have been like being on a scary ride at the fun park - a ghost train ride really..... but i am the ghost. I could hardly bear to put my thoughts and feelings into words so the fact i am writing today is a good sign. I am still in a lot of physical pain. I am walking like an old woman with bad joint pain and i have been living with heat packs strapped around me for days - its the only thing that seems to help. It just doesn't seem right that i should be in so much pain just because i will be having a period soon - i wish it would just come and be done with.
I did manage to look up some info on HRT and it says the first few months tend to be the worst, 3 months is the recommended timescale for letting it settle down. As far as i remember the first month i had 2 weeks of what i can only describe as severe PMT or PMS with feeling sick, pain in my head and my stomach etc so this time it does seem a little shorter - we will see soon!
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